This is…. gonna be a magick journal now lol. I’m a chaos magician and making my own personal practice/religion based around my symbolism and mind… layers…?
Fish Town, Elsewhere
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Creating something for destruction is very new to me. Even with this Owl I can’t help but feel some sort of maternal feelings towards it, and that’s solely from *making* it by hand. Stitch by stitch, row by row. Never felt that from my drawings of it
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More work on the Owl! Just one feather left on this wing and then there’s… the back of it, and then there’s a whole other wing… and the rest of the Owl… boy… this is a lot of work for something so evil!
I was like “lol me”, but actually… “the flesh that brings me into existence” goes ridiculously hard. This flesh machine really is just a vehicle for “me”, whatever that may be. Be it the mind or soul I don’t know, or ego if you wanna go that route
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Since starting the Owl I’ve had two dreams about the trauma the Owl caused. Two dream where I had extreme reactions, I feel like my brains finally processing it. I’ve never had dreams about it before, and now I’m starting to! They’re painful, but such is the cost of healing
Recently started crocheting an owl I plan on sacrificing. It’s gonna be an interesting process to make something just to chop it up and burn it, but very worth it!
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Recently started crocheting an owl I plan on sacrificing. It’s gonna be an interesting process to make something just to chop it up and burn it, but very worth it!
In the day I’ve had this thing I’m already using it as my own personal rosary and have mapped out five sets of sentences and three smaller ones. Each petal will contain a word, each flower is a certain part of a sentence structure
The flowers spin, so like that a new sentence will be created, plan on using it for divination! I watched this video and it gave me a lot of ideas. Divination is great since it gives the brain a tool for solving problems, unblocking it
youtube.com/watch?app=deskto…
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Planning ritual type stuff, gonna take some time to make the damn owl itself, but the joy I’ll take in its destruction. A collections gotta start somewhere after all…
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Some magick stuff, designing three coins coinciding with mind, body, and soul. Also designing a ritual outfit to go with my cape. Also a mask I’ll be making “for Halloween”, it’s for, like, ritual stuff but hey, why skip a chance to dress up!
Why do belief systems have to incorporate the rest of the world to be considered true? Why is it “this religion is the TRUE religion! Convert!” There’s such a diversity in beliefs that I don’t think beliefs need outside opinions to be true. One’s experiences make it true
The Demiurge makes more sense to me since it’s a scorned creation separated from the divine and was like “… idk imma just make a world”. A creation separated and hated doing its best with what it’s got is more helpful as a thought process to me than “I’m unworthy and gonna burn”
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Wishbones has been bringing back good memories I had thought I lost. I really thought most of my life was just gone aside from some memories that were protected, but now I’m getting other days, other moments of joy. Even during horrible years there have been moments of memory
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So… I had designed a pond to “fish” at. Basically pretend to go fishing with my mini fishing rod and catch some Fishbones. It’s… kinda like meditation but you’re catching “bad” thoughts so they can be transformed/healed later on
