Cinder Pulse❣️

Hey, this will be my last post on this topic, deleted the other one cuz honestly, I'm not a fan of obscuring things like that (and it's OOC for even me IRL), and so I want this to serve as my upfront thoughts, after talking about this with someone (who I won't name) who talked me through it, and giving it some time to reflect and understand my feelings surrounding nsfw content. This is all to get it off my chest and hopefully I can sleep better at night (didn't help I was pulling an all-nighter on a 16 hour flight). After this, I won't be speaking any more on this, as I don't intend to create additional drama. Some people in the same sort of situation probably won't care about it at all and continue as they do, but I do. First, I'd like to say that the stuff around me doing QoS, as a private thing, yes I have in very small spurts of time. I won't lie and say I haven't. What was circulating were pics taken some good amount of time ago and kept to myself. I understand the implications of such content and it is why I keep it hidden. Since taking those pics months ago I have stopped doing those, but the situation around me was supposed to be a gooner RP situation sprinkled in with some exhibitionism. All I'm going to say for that situation is that I reaped what I sowed essentially. It was a moment of being too horny which definitely clouded my better judgment. More than that, though, what eats at me right now is that I did betray some people's trust in me, uncharacteristically so, and for that I'm eternally sorry for doing so. So, with this reason along with the implied racist reasons for QoS, I'm going to stop doing that content. You all have zero obligation, or reason, to believe me at this point, and you have every right to your opinion, but I'm going to make this statement now. (I do want to say, however, that in every instance where I was given an MCDF to pose with, I've always been respectful in its usage, do not think that I don't. In this I take it very seriously.) There was a time where when I started, I wanted to share my gooner pics with everyone else in the space, and I really looked up to bigger creators at the time! And even now, I still do, and I have had the opportunity to collab and connect with people bigger than me! So in that sense, it was a dream come true (dream is a bit exaggerated here but I digress). I won't take for granted how big I myself have become and that creating stuff with people in this space gave me so much joy. With the side benefit of also improving my editing and posing skills. I fear that I won't go back to that again which really scares me, as I want to collab and do pics and connect with cool people, and it's one of my favorite things to do right now. I met so many talented people in this space, and I don't want to lose those connections. Some doors are going to forever be closed and some pots can't be repaired, especially after this. And the people who I hope reads this probably never will. And for people who do stuff with me, and want to distance themselves away due to this, I understand all of this and really I had it coming to be honest. As in the conversation with my friend, some things can be mended and repaired, and I'll take every opportunity to try and do so. This will also be shared with some people that I want to continue having good relations with that don't immediately have me blocked. So, with all that being said, I intend to continue posting like how I did all those years ago, posting gooner/sexy pics, having fun with it, and connecting with cool and talented people. There will be an element of self-policing here too though (for obvious reasons), since making promises at this point will sound cheap. Hopefully this comes across as genuine, and if you made it all the way to this point, thanks for reading, and I hope you can continue supporting me.💕 (also got the sub just to post this long wall of text. I won't have that blue checkmark for long).