InkLee✒️

I've want to open up about things. As much as i like to make new friends and meet new people to play and hang out with, many people especially vtubers and content creators i've met didn't value my friendship and just cut ties with me after they got big. I rarely gets mad for things like this but the fact that i've been treated like this on several occasions now by many different vtubers mean it is a scummy behaviour that people just do to build their brand and fame. 9 times out of 10, when i tried to reach out and make friends with other vtubers, the moment they got famous or have their big break, they'll refuse to talk or interact with me anymore despite doing so prior. For them, i'm nothing more than a platform for their career. The most scummy part is that some even outright admits to me that they dont want their brand associated with me after giving me cold shoulders. These are the people who told me they're my friends, but the slight change of wind is enough to make them jumped the ship. For example, I once know this person who has a smaller following than me, even a smaller viewers with only 5 CCV (me being included), who recently blew up in popularity and gained nearly half a 100k subs. I used to talk to them, sharing cosplays pictures, even invited them to do collab with me which they refused (i thought of being a good samaritan and was hoping my viewers can give them support too). They said they aren't comfortable doing so, which i understand, but is open to the idea for the future. After they blew up, i saw them doing their first collab with other big name vtubers and while i do felt a bit hurt, i still came to congratulate them for making it big. Sadly any attempts i make to reach out to them were just met with silence. I even contacted them on two seperate website to make sure they dont missed it, which to no vain. I know they are active in social media because i kept seeing them interacting with other vtubers who again, is more famous than me. Maybe they are busy with the popularity they have now and tries to cash in, or maybe they turned their DM to avoid spam but most of the times, i saw these people READ my messages so i know that they do saw it, but chose to ignored it for some reason. The way i see it, the moment i'm too small to even be meaningful for them, they casted me aside and forgot i ever exist after i treated them like my equal when they have so little. Maybe i am not the first that they've done this too, but i want to talk about this because it is genuinely hurtful to me as i'm usually the one to make time and effort to reach out to them first. Being a vtuber takes a lot of work and effort, but that doesn't mean you can just take things for granted and forgets those who gave you the chance when you have nothing for your name. I know people have the freewill to pick who they want to interact with or spend time, but if you are going to discard me after i'm no longer of use to you, then you're just lying to me by saying that we're ever friends. I genuinely wanted to make this work but if my efforts and feelings dont matter to you once you got your name on the plaque, then they never matter at all to you. In the end, this is just my vented up frustration that i need to say so i can make peace with myself. On the other hand, If you guys felt like you are the people i directed this to, then i'm sad to realized that you guys tricked me into thinking you were ever my friends.