Dead Doll

Alright. Turns out it's already had it, so here's actually using.

Trauma healing has gotten stale, and Empty Spaces has damaged me in ways I'll never recover from. For all my efforts to educate and help, I have been ignored and hated. For all my efforts to be educated, I've been alone. This is goodbye. I hope you rot.

Getting suggested tweets about puppydoll's death and seeing the replies "I wish I could have known it better" feels so empty with how flighty everyone's interests and loyalties are...

Hope hope hope Hope Hope HOPE HOPE HOPE TAKE YOUR HOPE AND PISS IT DOWN YOUR EYES

No one owes me attention no one owes me to press the little like button. I've heard all the arguments and internalized them all. I'm a selfish, demanding sub who

Twitter is the worst of it maybe... 1,700 remaining followers, honestly no idea how many are real or active or whatever. No idea. Passivity. Writing fiction, unraveling mental illness, think-tanking about society, thirst posting, even great pics of me riding dick kinda go nowhere

This is what I've felt like, in Twitter, on my own founded discord server, in private conversations... I can scream and cry and beg and beg and beg and it disappears it just disappears and vanishes and somehow time has passed even though no events to count have passed

Why is apologizing so bad?

I'm terrified it'll keep happening I'll never be real here I'm terrified it'll stop I don't know what all I need to be held account to I don't know how many things I've done are deplorable if only I actually did them

I can SEE the words on the screen. I can FEEL how hoarse my throat is from crying. I can remember everything that never happened. I'm in a parallel world.

I think it's supernatural, genuinely It's like, I can say or do anything, and nothing will happen. I can sing ideation or erotic or insight and, and nothing. My words don't exist. I didn't say them. I didn't do that.

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I've gone through, bouts, where, nothing I do is, real

thank you, thank you

Can someone please reply to this? I'm derealizing, kinda, bad embarrassing

I'm trying to be okay with things dying

Yes yes hi yes hello yes??

Just one signature is easy! I can sign things all day!

It's a bit like the nasty side of Kant, or precedent. If you propose an idea, and it could be extrapolated how that idea goes bad, then you have suggested a harmful idea. Even if the danger is physically impossible to realize!

I see this show up all the time with drug talk. Video of two girls doing lines? It gets flipped into "how would you feel if both girls overdosed and died on screen" because that danger COULD exist, it therefore ALWAYS exists.