SP-220 HawkFire

Hey - I wanna be a little greedy and share something with you guys that I'm proud of myself for. ♥ Over the last 2 years, I have very diligently pursued a healthier lifestyle by eating healthier and doing consistent cardio/strength training - as a result, I have lost over 135lbs (~60kg)!!! This week, I will be traveling to Brazil in order to prepare for surgery to remove a tonnn of excess skin from my torso/chest, as well as fix some abdominal muscle separation that I have as a result of being morbidly obese for the majority of my life until now. The surgery is scheduled for November 4th. I don't think it's fully hit me that it's happening yet, but I'm really, really excited! I feel like I've become an entirely different person - not just the fact that I've halved in size physically, but emotionally and mentally too. Learning to develop and maintain a strong sense of discipline has helped me achieve so many of my goals. Achieving my goals has helped me gain confidence. Gaining confidence has helped me pursue things I would've been too scared to do before - like doing an IRL meet and greet for the first time earlier this year and finally getting to meet so many of you! Pushing myself to do things I was scared to do before has become an invigorating driving force for me, and I'm excited to see what other ways I can push myself for the better from here. I could go on endlessly about how much taking care of myself improved pretty much every aspect of my life in some way, but this is already getting wordier than I'd planned - oopsie.. 🥺 That all being said, there is one big, gigantic bummer - which is that as much as I *hate* taking time off from streaming, I will ABSOLUTELY have to do so; a few days leading up to the surgery for travel and surgery prep, and then at least 1 or 2 weeks after surgery, maybe more (but hopefully not), to focus on getting to a point where I can feel well enough to stream again. I'll be able to stream one more time this coming Tuesday, November 3rd (the day before surgery), and then off I go for a bit. It's gonna suck not getting to hang out with you guys as much as I'll want to. 💔 Thank you in advance to all my honeybuns for your patience with me - let's make November 3rd a big party, okay? 🥹