Lana Rhoades says in one scene a man gagged her until she threw up into a bowl, then pissed in it and asked her to drink it - and she didn't know how to say no “Honestly, I feel like I'm in denial sometimes, and I can't accept some of the things that I've done.” “There is one thing that, you know, I tried talking to a therapist about before.” “Basically, this guy had a bowl, and he, like, gagged me until I threw up into it. And then he, like, pissed in the bowl, and during the scene he asked me to drink it, and I didn't know how to say no.” “It was one of the most disgusting, foul scenes I ever had to do. And I'm telling a therapist this, and they don't even fucking know what to say to me.” “This one my agent was actually very pissed about.” “Again, I'm not saying that I was raped... I told this guy, like, ‘Yeah, I'm excited, let's do this.’ ... I just wanted everyone to be happy.” “I can't blame anyone. All that I can do now is make the best of my experiences and accept it, which is really hard for me to do.”