MagnetVox

ALSO Context because that's helpful: Someone made a questionable edit of one of my animations. I feel like I was pretty polite about not being comfortable about it, but there was still a couple guys that were jerks about it.

Maybe it's late and I need to sleep, but this interaction is making me reconsider if posting my art publicly is even worth it.

I don’t want to be sad. I really don’t. It sucks and I’m driving people away. I want to enjoy things again and be proud of my work and tell others what a good job they did. But I don’t know how, and I’m sorry. This is the last I’ll speak on the topic.

I’m taking a break, at least from posting publicly, for a while. My motivations are all mixed up and I’ve still got a long way to go lol. There’ll be more public content when I get back, but until then I’m kinda keeping it to myself until I improve.

And I appreciate the kind comments. But I have never once, in my almost ten years doing this, felt proud of any piece I've made. I think that's pretty telling that I'm doing something wrong.

More than you can handle.

Sorry I deleted this one earlier.

Fellow creatives! What do you use to backup your data? It would really suck to lose everything due to a SSD failing. I've been looking at some big external HDDs but I was curious as to what everyone else does. Are SSDs better for pure backup? Do I get serious and get a tape drive?

Years later, I don't even know how I managed to get that growth so smoooooth

Man, I know I get all doom and gloom sometimes, but seriously, the people I've met doing this are so nice and supportive. You all mean a lot to me, as completely cringey as that sounds lol.

This isn't a crashout, I promise. I'm not deleting stuff or anything dumb. Idunno. Sometimes it just feels like there's expectations, stated or otherwise, that I worry I cannot meet.