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wdym jeonghan never hosted for seventeen members’ regular monthly meeting and the members didn’t know about it 😭 👼🏻: ‘it’s jeonghan's turn!’ 👼🏻: i quietly managed to sneak out of it every time 👩🏻: what? but you said everyone has to do it! you have to do it, right? 👼🏻: but since there are 13 of us, after about 11 months have passed, it eventually becomes, ‘should we do it or not? should we do it?’ then someone goes, ‘okay, then i'll start again.’ 👼🏻: but like i said earlier, for me, saying something like, ‘hey, let's do this!’ is so embarrassing. ah, seriously, even just the idea of it... 👼🏻: i suddenly imagine myself wanting to have a group meal of janchi-guksu (korean banquet noodles) with everyone. i’m imagining it all by myself 👼🏻: ah, should i choose janchi-guksu because it’ll save money? would the members even like it? and then i’d have to tell everyone to come dressed in some kind of costume or cosplay, right? 👼🏻: just thinking about all of that is so exhausting for me. it was emotionally stressful 👼🏻: so i just stay still and keep quiet. 👩🏻: have you never done it even once? 👼🏻: maybe the members wouldn’t even know. they wouldn’t know, right? because they probably think everyone has already done it 👼🏻: even taking charge of organizing this gathering makes me embarrassed. and even the fact that i chose the place for this meal gathering makes me feel embarrassed