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was about to reshare the link for time is a mountain and then i remembered lol
not minghao doing his birthday live ON THE MOUNTAIN
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In a dream I returned to the river of bees
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carly rae jepsen habits of creatures daffodils verse warmup
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[r1 fill] hungrier/tides >minghao, 404 words, poetry >"But in long months alone, I’ve learned there’s love in drowning." 17hols.dreamwidth.org/7664.h…
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🎱: Art has the ability to convey the heart of its creator to others. I love not only art, but everything beautiful. Even if you don't know pure art, I think finding small but beautiful things every day in life is another way to love art." minghao 🥹🤍
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@deadwines I know we've carson yoongi'd as a "love destroys me" thesis but have we carson minghao'd as a "love shows me as a destroyed person" thesis
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my want of you partakes me. So reasons the lover at the edge of eros: he must recover and reincorporate what is gone if he is to be a complete person. All desire is for a part of oneself gone missing, or so it feels to the person in love. Anne Carson
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250829 芭莎男士 BAZAAR MEN interview with minghao “I think I’m like a river. I’m not the ocean yet, but I’m a river on its way to the ocean” 🐸 hello everyone, i am xu minghao. today i am very happy to be collaborating with bazaar men! 💭 this year you have already shown many surprises. what kinds of challenges or breakthroughs do you want to take on next? (0:17) 🐸 going forward, i want to integrate electronic elements and fuse them into the stage. this could appear in the music itself, or it could be in the visuals 💭 what is your preferred fashion style in daily life, the type of outfits you enjoy wearing most? (0:28) 🐸 my clothing always changes along with my living habits or the environment i am in. the biggest factor is still my mood. for example, when i enjoy drinking tea and meditating, i prefer clothes that are more relaxed, more flowing or in unified tones and colors. but recently, because of my strong interest in edm electronic music, my outfits lean more toward a street culture style 💭 when you are not working, what is the source of joy in your personal time? (0:55) 🐸 recently i have been very absorbed in one thing. every city i go to or even when i am simply resting, i always go listen to music. that is because i am currently learning dj skills, and the music style i want to pursue in the future requires a lot of study. this has become my recent source of joy, but at the same time it is also part of my work. so actually, there has been a very big change in my life 💭 do you use the popular mbti test to understand yourself? (1:19) 🐸 i take it as a reference. whether it is zodiac signs or other kinds of “personality tests” i find them quite interesting and i do believe in them. but i cannot say that just because of them, i am exactly that type of person. rather, they can explain certain aspects of me 💭 how would you describe yourself? (1:35) 🐸 i feel that i am like river water or a flowing stream. but i am not yet the sea — i am a river that is running toward the sea. 💭 before every stage performance, do you have a specific ritual to encourage yourself? (1:56) 🐸 we do. all of us put our thumbs up like this, and before going on stage we grab each other’s thumbs and then shout “jiayou” together 💭 if you could give advice to yourself ten years ago, what would you say? (2:08) 🐸 i would not say anything. i would tell him that i will not interfere with my past self. i feel that just walking the path i have walked is enough 💭 on the tenth anniversary of seventeen’s debut, what was the most special moment for you? (2:19) 🐸 for me, the most special moment was that we held a very large fan meeting at the han river in korea. my hometown also has a river and back then i would often go for walks there with my parents. after moving to seoul, i would go to the han river alone. at that time, i often felt homesick or lonely — i was still very young and had gone to a foreign country. but today, ten years later, to have so many people accompanying me at the han river gave me a very special feeling
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#THE8 for ELLEMEN “I believe that 1000 different people will have 1000 different impressions of who Xu Minghao is. This is a very normal thing to occur. But if I was to take each person's opinions of me to heart, then I would not be myself." #디에잇 @pledis_17
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r1 fill-remix] every song of this country has an unsung third stanza >minghao/yixing > 1k >remix of the song that says my bones are your bones by klav > fwb, idols, unrequited feelings 17hols.dreamwidth.org/10892.…
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ruminations of a middle school classroom when your teacher happens to be xu minghao #svtfa #the8
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anyone on this tl??
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joy drew me the craziest thing for my birthday #yoonrard
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Rita Dove, “November for Beginners”
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no notes, absolute perfection. gimme 50 more!
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my fucking god its all so bleak. 150+ fics of mine on this. mind you i get 2 readers on average on anything i post so what the actual hell? having to see folks interact with certain of my fics on this site that have ZERO interactions on ao3 is ridiculously jarring.
In light of recent ao3 related events, I have stumbled upon a website that I think authors need to be made aware of.  The website ao3 [DOT] life has been scraping and downloading fics published to ao3 for who knows how long. 🧵
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that big ao3 scrape 2 years ago already made me stop writing for the most part but a part of me was always yearning to get back to it, and willing to try at least. idk man idk. whats it all for.
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like my life is miserable enough.i dont need another thing to make me annoyed/peeved/upset on the regular. something that i do for joy and community that too. what a laugh.
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