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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀         ‍      Will Graham （     #hannibalrp #dddne        #canon #aurp #opendms      ）  Portrayed by — #ᴠᴇʟᴠᴇᴛᴇᴇɴ

I don't really know how to let someone do that for me. I'm used to being the one who deals with things. I don't always think about what it costs me until I'm already exhausted. But I don't want you to stop. I care about you too. I'll try to let you in, even when it's difficult.

I'll try to remember that the next time I'm lying awake. I'm not used to calling someone just because I'm having a hard time. Usually, I wait until it passes or find something else to occupy myself with. But I appreciate it, Hannibal. More than I'm probably going to tell you.

He had a much needed break away.

At any hour? I might actually take you up on that. Especially on the nights when my head won't shut up and the dogs have decided they're done entertaining me. I don't always know what to say when I'm frustrated. But knowing I can call might make it easier to get through it.

I could do that. Grooming them would probably keep my hands busy long enough to stop me from thinking about the clock. And if it doesn't work, at least they get some attention. They won't complain about being woken up.

I usually keep telling myself I'll fall asleep if I just lie there long enough. Then I get frustrated because I'm still awake. Getting up might be easier than doing that. The dogs would probably appreciate it, anyway.

Then let's talk about it. I want to understand what I'm supposed to be doing when I can't sleep. Right now, I just lie there and get more frustrated until morning. If there's a better way to handle that, I'd like to know what it is.

Maybe that's enough for now. I don't need to know how this ends. I just need to get through the next part without talking myself out of it. So tell me what we do first.

Another restless night, but that means he can appreciate the mist of the morning as the dogs roam the yard.

I know. I've been doing it for so long that I don't always realise I'm doing it. It's easier to handle things myself than have someone else worry about me. But asking me not to do that with you. I can try. I don't know how good I'll be at it, but I can try.

I know I withdraw. It's easier than trying to explain something when I don't know how to explain it. And when I'm tired, I don't have much left to give anyone. I don't want to keep shutting people out. I just don't always know how to stop myself from doing it.