honestly just not gonna trade this bs today its so depressing
was out for most of the day
just gonna chill out for the rest of the night hope things improve
starting to realize im running out of time, i cant keep sitting here making fucking crumbs, scared to lose my measly .2-1 sol (common loss from my bids)
its fucked, idk why im putting so much value on this shit why can’t i just trade emotionless and win
fuck it’s bad, im so capable because i have so many ideas with multiple angles shooting in my head on different coins constantly, and a lot of them are right (more right than wrong) and i don’t fucking listen to myself like basically ever
i fade my first strong thought and delay my buy to where my emotions take over and ik if I buy at that higher price i will fuck it all up, so i leave it, onto the next
i also have this fucked up tendency (one of my biggest problems i absolutely despise) when I buy some shit that’s nuking, like trying to catch a falling knife u could say, and sell insta like not even a second later right ontop of others who have the same idea, (now sure i come out on top like 60% of the time id say on those), i make really nothing much probably 10-30% most of the time, but what this creates is a fucking fucked up jeet mindset where I can’t hold any other coin that I’m trading normally without selling on the first fucking green candle and bit of motion it gets. its like im just addicted to the green on my screen and can’t stand any red so i try to avoid it at all costs. ik the feeling of racking up all those minuscule but many small loses which eventually lead to tilt, much bigger losses, then zero. ive been there before and now try to avoid any red at all costs. i need to grow some balls because this shit is fucking hindering my skill for reading narras and all the knowledge ive built up over the time ive spent here. its like its all a waste because with the current way im playing, ill never be able to get up there with the bigger guys cuz i simply can’t hold to my word and intuition. im weak minded and lazy. I will fix this immediately because it’s my biggest hindrance in my performance.
what it all comes down to i believe, is the mental. how strong my mind is and how unattached I can be from the numbers. maybe to help this i can just lower my sizing significantly, just to grow the habit of making bigger x’s. with the much smaller than normal sizing, i can hold longer without having that voice in the back of my mind telling myself “i can’t lose this”, it’s simply not big enough of a bid for this to happen. i can win and i will, i have the capabilities to do so i just need to evolve.
i put too much value on this fucking solana token ingame currency
my measly wins arent going to cut it
i need to actually fucking hold coins to accomplish anything near my goals
capitalize on all these ideas i have instead of just never doing anything and staying stagnant to “preserve” fuck off
need to leave my emotions to the side and face reality
sometimes i forget the reason im even here in the first place
things will never go back to how they were in the past and that’s the reality
there is no point in trying to force that
things will only get more and more complicated as time goes on
traders and devs will only get better and better
this doesnt mean the money will be gone, itll be there but your going to have to fight for it a lot harder, i mean shits genuinely been war onchain recently it’s fucked but this is js how it is now and u can’t do anything
all you can truly do is adapt to the circumstances that are presented to you, and utilize your edge to the best of your ability
there will always be money to be made tho and I need to make a lot more of it
ive been a crumb for too long
how can i get better if my habit of selling early for absolutely no reason doesnt stop?
fucks wrong w me js hold some shit and you will win fuck
called out a 15x today on pump app turning .5 to 6.5 sol
honestly been really liking it, especially when im out and only have my phone available, i can open up the app and trade on all chains seamlessly
sign up here👇
pump.fun/u/c0s
picking it up a notch
need to ramp things up heavily if i want to beat the past 2 months' pnl
time to enter hodler era and hit that 50 sol play
been having a rough week and just getting by
vols significantly lowered since halfway through october and im yet to adapt to it
i need to hold things i genuinely have conviction in, during slow times like this coins will just simply lag and wont go when they make sense to go
at the same time i need to be hyper selective and take p on things i don't really have built up conviction on because the cielings are just simply lower
need to adaptinu in these trenches mayne
what a shitty sludge filled day
was definitely forcing things when clearly the coins i bought did not want to go up
need to be giga selective and adapt once again
