saire • stuDYING 📚

seeing heeseung cry and mentioning how he still thinks about that march period really made me sad. hearing his ments today on how he felt like he wasn’t enough, felt insignificant, felt alone, wondering if we would still be there for him, and this isn’t the first time he’s mentioned feeling this way. it reminded me of his teenvogue interview 💬: evan remembers trying to make the day of the announcement, a tuesday, feel as normal as possible 💬: he kept an eye on the situation, while also trying to find peace with his decision 🦌: if you view it from one lens, i guess i did a variety of activities in order to ease my apprehensive and worried heart: i ate, practiced my vocals, worked out, watched a movie. 🦌: i tried to spend the day working on myself also, how he described “overflow” & “ride or die” 🦌: overflow is a song i wrote when i was going through a really hard time. i was surrounded by many emotions and it was a period when those feelings weren’t really being resolved or released. they started bubbling up inside me so i thought 🦌:…it is the reason why i wrote “ride or die” 🦌: during that period, fans were really worried about me and i could tell it affected them on an emotional level. 🦌: i needed a way to make them feel calm and that’s why i released the song. i just wanna give me such a big hug ☹️🫳