JUNE 💜💗

How am I supposed to have a normal relationship with fiction when Ling Xinlu exists? THIS is why he's my favourite. The psychological complexity of this man has me in a chokehold. I'm fascinated by the darker paths his character could take and what they might reveal about him. If Yuri were to leave him, what do you think would become of Xinlu? The very first thought that comes to mind is him reverting to the person he was in the initial chapters. Or perhaps it would be something far more devastating than that. I can't help thinking about the possibility of Xinlu hurting others while destroying himself in the process. What if it eventually comes down to the sentiment of, if Yuri can't be mine, then he can't belong to anyone else either? I have SO many thoughts about this. Xinlu strikes me as someone who could become deeply self-destructive if the person he loves were to leave him. I can even imagine him resorting to self-harm as a way of manipulating Yuri into coming back, whether consciously or out of sheer desperation. The thought of how far he might go if he genuinely believed he was about to lose Yuri is both fascinating and terrifying to me.