ramona catches herself too late, a small chuckle already making its way past her lips. she clears her throat.
โsorryโitโs just thatโฆ itโs hard to imagine maple hating ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ,โ she says, shifting in her seat to turn her entire body to face oona. โshe talks about you, like, all
corners of her lips curling into a soft, teasing smile, hoping to cut through some of the tension that forms in the small space of the houseboat.
โfor maple?โ she asks at the admission, lips pressing together into a thin line. itโs barely a questionโwords to fill the space
the collision causes ramonaโs cheeks to burn, and the heat lingers long after they head inside.
โis it camp season again?โ she asks, reaching for the joint almost automatically. her fingers gently brush against oonaโs as she takes it, sending an involuntary shiver down her
now, she couldnโt imagine oona keeping her distanceโnot feeling the weight of her hand in her own, or her fingers absentmindedly twisting through her hair when she gets bored.
ramona sits across from her, taking another slow puff before handing the joint back over. the smoke
ramona doesnโt hesitate to reach for oonaโs hand. itโs nothing unusual for them, but her heart still gives an involuntarily flutter.
๐ช๐ตโ๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ง๐ข๐ถ๐ญ๐ต, ramona wants to say, as if the words could actually fix anythingโerase the years of guilt oona has been
carrying by having to play parent, or make maple pause to consider reason when sheโs too overwhelmed with emotions to stop herself from lashing out at the wrong person because no one else is within reach to blameโsomething ramona understands all too well herself.
โi can be
โi never said i wanted to leave to go play house in new york!โ ramona argues, trying to hold her ground. โi just brought up the possibility of visiting, and you took it likeโlike iโd already packed my bags.โ
๐ช ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ.
the past tense makes her stomach coil.
โi
darkerโbut ramona still manages to trace her favorite color inside them.
โiโm sorry for hurting you,โ she chokes out, louder this time. โbut oonaโplease...โ
she doesnโt even know what sheโs asking for.
her fingers twitch, desperate to reach out and close the remaining gap




