POSH SPICE

Cardi B describes the exact moment she knew her marriage to Offset was dead and the painful journey of letting go emotionally "I also felt like my marriage, like, I felt the love dying. From my end, from his end. I was very lonely because I chose to be lonely." "I was saying, like, you know what? I [can’t] go through this anymore. I have to put a stop to it." "But when I said I was going to put a stop to it, ’cause you could say you’re going to put a stop to it and you could go a month without being around somebody. It’s not until... when you say so, it’s when your heart say so.” “I kept telling myself I will not contact this person for a month. I will not give in. I will not forgive this easy. I will not go back. I will not go to the pattern. I will not go through it." "But I was crying every day. I was hurt every day. I was out here in LA and in a mansion by myself. I was thinking about it every single day. And when your heart is not done, your heart is not done.” “Then I told myself, I’m pregnant. I’m going to accept my flaws, the flaws that I bring in this marriage. I’m going to apologize for it and I’m going to work on it." "And when I take accountability and you take advantage of me taking accountability, and you take that as, ‘See, I know she’ll be back,’ instead of me taking accountability and you taking advantage of that, it really just killed everything." "And while it was dying, I had a human growing in me, and I just kept thinking, like, what’s life going to be without this person? What life going to be without raising my last child without this person? What’s life going to be with that person not being my friend anymore? "When you have those type of thoughts, it would make you sad, it would get you depressed. It would have you lost.” “But I overcame that, and I am the strongest that I have ever been. I felt my strongest when I was 22, 23, 24. That’s when I felt like I was living in a power, and that’s how I feel right now." "And it took months for the heart to say you’re done, instead of my mouth and my brain. My heart had to be like, you’re done. ’Cause you could say it and you could take actions, but even if you take actions, if you’re not done, you’re not done.” “Like, I kept asking, around that time I was working with Shakira, and I was like, how the fuck did you overcome this? And it’s like, it’s going to happen and it would never happen, and it happened." "It took some crying, it took some thoughts, scary thoughts. But I’m here, honey.”