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Hi y’all. I’m sorry to ask again. Rent is due November 3rd, and I’m still trying to get through until my approved disability payments begin.
I’ve got some toward rent, but I need help. If you can give even a little or share, please do. Thanks. 🙏🐻
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I am deeply saddened to learn of Walter Koenig’s passing.
Although we did not know each other well away from the set, we shared the later seasons of the original Star Trek series and the six films that followed.
What I observed, and what so many fans have expressed over the years, was a man who genuinely loved the Star Trek community.
At conventions, Walter was rarely content to remain behind a signing table. He preferred to be among the people who had kept Star Trek alive for so many decades.
That kind of genuine connection is rare, and it will be remembered by everyone who came into contact with him.
My condolences to his family, his friends, and the countless fans whose lives he touched.
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Well, folks, it was the ER again. In an attempt to control my Chronic Idiopathic Hives, I was given a new medicine called Xolair and it made everything 10 times worse. Huge amounts of steroids and Benadryl via IV were needed.
I was approved for disability at the end of August, but I'm still waiting for the administrative process to move forward so payments can begin. My attorney has been pushing my case manager at Arizona DES for my PERC interview date, and I should hear something this week.
To give you an idea of some of the delays we're seeing here in Arizona, my attorney told me about another client who was approved at the end of March, didn't have their PERC interview until mid-July, and didn't receive their first payment until October 1. I'm not saying my case will follow the exact same timeline, but these are the kinds of delays we're dealing with here. And it's scary when you're trying to keep a roof over your head.
Despite another hospitalization last week for a serious asthma attack, I'm continuing to train in AI engineering and cybersecurity, preparing for professional certification exams, and building the skills I need to return to work. I'm also working with my disability vocational counselor and my autism coach to make that happen.
Disability for me has never been a permanent solution. The back pay may give me a cushion, and the monthly benefits will give me some breathing room, but they won't be enough to support me. I still need to work within the limitations and rules that apply to my benefits.
I'm continuing to sell stuff online, books and other possessions, to help cover expenses. If anyone is interested in seeing what I have available, please DM me.
I know I've asked for a great deal of help. It's difficult and embarrassing to keep doing this, but I'm trying very hard to hold on to my home and get through this period until I can stand on my own feet again.
I really appreciate everyone who has helped me get this far. Please keep me in your prayers this week while I try to get the rent together.
God bless y'all. 🙏
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This is a hard post for me. I never like to ask for help for myself. But I'm going to ask for prayers. I have been diagnosed with cancer. Any prayers would be appreciated.
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Lila, I say this as a Catholic woman with a background very similar to Nala’s: You are conflating two entirely different things, and frankly, showing very little discernment in the process.
I believe in repentance. I believe in the radical, transforming mercy of Jesus Christ. I know the price that can come with walking away from that world. And I rejoice when ANY woman abandons pornography and turns toward God.
Nala and her husband marketed Christian courses on marriage, pornography addiction, and other spiritual and personal struggles. The screenshot circulating here also describes paid mentorship packages promising things like "prophetic covering."
These are entirely legitimate grounds for concern.
And why are Catholics who ask these questions being characterized as self-righteous Christians who want repentant women to hide their heads in shame?
That is a gross misrepresentation of the criticism.
Lila, we are Catholics. We have 2,000 years of theological tradition, spiritual wisdom, and the lives of countless saints to draw upon. We should know better than to embrace the evangelical celebrity-conversion culture in which a dramatic testimony seemingly becomes an instant qualification for public ministry and bizarre evangelical prophetic coverings.
The Catechism states plainly: "Discernment of charisms is always necessary." (CCC 801)
None of this means Nala's conversion is insincere. I neither know her heart nor presume to judge the state of her soul. That belongs to God.
But neither does the financial sacrifice of leaving OnlyFans automatically validate everything she does afterward. Financial sacrifice and other penitential suffering is a good thing, especially for women like us.
And quoting Luke 15:7 does not settle the question. Of course heaven rejoices over a repentant sinner! So should we.
But heaven's rejoicing over repentance is not a blanket endorsement of every business venture, ministry, claim to spiritual authority, or attempt to join a paid speaker circuit of charlatans and false prophets.
Mercy is not gullibility and prudence is not condemnation. And refusing to confuse a conversion testimony with spiritual authority is not a failure of Christian charity.
As Catholics, we should understand that distinction better than anyone.
Some people are angry about this clip, saying Nala should not be platformed, that she not sincere and is cashing in on her conversion, and that woman leaving the porn industry should go hide their heads in shame.
I disagree. If you talked to some of these women personally, you’d learn that many have suffered huge financial losses because they left the OF world, including Nala. To the point where they worried if they’d be able to pay rent. There was a significant price they paid to leave it all behind and follow Jesus. Now, sadly, they face the scorn of some Christians, too, who act holier than thou if they dare come to a pro-life event and share their story there (at our request) in an interview to inspire others.
The best way to further destroy the culture is by refusing to celebrate repentance and instead to condemn endlessly. That is not Christ-like.
We also invited and interviewed many girls who do not share Nala’s past. I have the “good girls” (as some folks are calling them) on my show as much as the girls with a past. Probably much more, although I don’t carefully count guests or clips based on people’s pasts. We can learn from both. Sadly the video that some Christians choose to dunk on was Nala’s.
“There will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance.”
Luke 15:7
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Human dignity is not conferred by the Census. It precedes every civil count.
Apportionment of representation is a juridical act of the community.
Excluding non-citizens and those without lawful permanent residency from that count does not deny that they are persons. It declines to treat non-membership as membership.
The Catechism distinguishes the stranger’s natural dignity from the authority of political communities, for the common good, to regulate entry and participation.
The bishops’ statement collapses that clear distinction.
U.S. bishops are opposing proposed Census Bureau rule changes for the 2030 census, arguing that excluding noncitizens without lawful permanent resident status from the apportionment count would effectively deny them recognition as persons.
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Dear Bishop Joensen,
Your October 24th statement said: There are many things tied to this present Administration that are blatantly at odds with our Catholic faith. You named the administration. You did not name the party whose platform contradicts Catholic teaching more directly than any policy you cited. That asymmetry is not a pastoral observation. It is a partisan one.
Immigration enforcement is a prudential question, and Catholics may weigh it differently. On abortion, on the surgical and chemical transition of children, on the redefinition of marriage — the Church has not left room for prudential disagreement. Those positions are not at odds with Catholic teaching in some debatable sense. They contradict it outright.
If your standard is what is blatantly at odds with the faith, the Democratic Party's platform meets it more directly than any border policy. You know this. Your silence on it, nine days before a national election, while naming only the administration in power, tells the faithful something you did not say in words.
A bishop who applies the faith as a measuring stick owes the faithful both ends of it. Selective application is not teaching. It is campaigning with vestments on.
In Christ,
Joseph Fosco
October 26, 2026
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An Open Concern About Appearances: The Catholic Church and the Midterms
I am Catholic. I say the rosary. I go to Mass. Nothing in what follows is an accusation against the Church, the Pope, or any bishop. It is a concern about how things look from the outside, and how that appearance is landing with millions of Americans right now.
This administration created a Justice Department task force on anti-Christian bias, pardoned twenty-three pro-life prisoners, stood up a White House Faith Office and a Religious Liberty Commission, designated Nigeria a Country of Particular Concern over the killing of Christians, and cut off federal funding to Planned Parenthood. For a Catholic writer, that record is not nothing. It is, on its face, one of the most tangible pro-life and pro-faith agendas in modern presidential history.
In January 2025, the same administration suspended the refugee and migrant service contracts that had funded the USCCB and Catholic Charities for decades. Over one hundred million dollars a year. More than ninety-five percent of some program budgets. By spring, staff were laid off. By summer, agencies were closing programs. The money did not come back.
Institutions that lose their largest funding stream tend to find their moral vocabulary sharpening in the same direction as their budgets. I am not saying that is what happened. I am saying that is what it looks like, and that appearance is not going unnoticed.
Fourteen months later, in April 2026, the public statements from the Vatican and from American bishops toward this administration grew noticeably louder and more pointed than anything seen during the first term. Catholics see it. Non-Catholics see it.
And when a bishop speaks out days before a national election against one party’s immigration positions—which are prudential disagreements open to debate—while remaining silent on the other’s platform positions that contradict settled Church teaching on life, on the body, on marriage, the imbalance is impossible to miss.
I am not suggesting the Church holds a grudge, or that its silence on one side was bought. I am saying that is the appearance, and appearances are what most Americans, Catholic and not, actually see. When the institution that spent a year without its largest funding stream then directs its public voice at one party near an election—the very party that delivered more concrete protections for Christian life and religious liberty than perhaps any administration in living memory—the appearance is not of a shepherd. It is of a stakeholder.
That is the embarrassment I cannot unsee.
-- Joseph Fosco
October 27, 2026
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I was the priest who said you were lying and I continue to say so. It is a shame that you are not man enough to admit the lies you wrote. And you should know that people around the World sent me your claims, think they were true:
1. One of them was that the Pilgrimage’s website had recently announced a Mass in St. Peter’s, which is completely false. I used the information that was on the website to prepare the announcement of the programme a week ago, and what was announced was a Mass in the Basilica of Saint Mary Major. The organisers were doing everything possible to gain entry to the Basilica, which is why that information about it had not yet been removed. But there was no reference whatsoever to a Mass in St. Peter’s.
2. Another lie was your claim that other dates had been offered to the organisers for holding the Mass in St. Peter’s; that is pure fantasy. Even if they had been, one cannot change a pilgrimage that has taken place on the same date for fifteen years only two months before it occurs. Spaces are rented from one year to the next, and there are hundreds of pilgrims coming from far away with their trips already paid for, etc. It takes only common sense to understand this.
3. Another lie was your claim that the reason given for refusing the Mass was that an activity related to the Franciscan year had already been scheduled for the Altar of the Chair. When the Mass was requested, no such activity had been scheduled, nor was this used in the Secretariat of State’s response as a reason for not accepting the Mass. Even if such an activity had existed, the two schedules would have been perfectly compatible, especially since the time of the procession could have been adjusted so as to enter at an hour when the celebration of Mass would not conflict with the Franciscan celebration.
4. Another was your claim that the organisers wanted to take a photograph in front of the “wooden wall” in order to make it appear that it had been erected as an obstacle, when everyone knows it is part of the Nativity scene installation. In reality, it was the Italian police themselves who led the procession to that place so that they could pray there.
This, among other things. I have no idea what motivated you to launch such a ferocious attack, given that you are completely uninformed about what took place. You are not the owner of the Traditional Mass in Rome, nor are you the owner of Rome. These faithful are Roman Catholics, and they have the right to come here on pilgrimage and to be given the minimum conditions needed to pray in St. Peter’s Basilica. At the very least, they should be given what was given to the LGBT group.
As is often the case in breaking news, the truth slowly comes out.
Today we learn directly from the organizers of the TLM pilgrimage that when they could not get Saint Peter’s basilica… “permission was sought and gained for a Prelatial (Pontifical) Low Mass in St Mary Major.”
So unlike what so many bloggers, podcasters, journalists, and rage baiters claimed, this was NOT a last-minute change but something that was known since August.
Respect to those who have already corrected what they previously posted and shame on those who have not.
I’ll also note, since I shared early on that events on their official website were still incorrect a day before the pilgrimage began (and many of these same people, including a priest involved said I was lying about that when it was updated the following day) the organizers also said this… “The SP website was based on what happened last year. The problem was that as things were confirmed, very late in the day, they were contirmed as being different trom what they expected, and the website was not updated. So I now understand.”
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My precious big brother took his own life today, in Arkansas. He texted me just before he did it. Please. If you are thinking of ending it all, please reach out. Please pray for my 97 y.o. mom, and my nephew. We are devastated.
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Pope Leo XIV explicitly sent a bishop to offer a Pride Mass for Fr. James Martin’s LGBTQ pilgrimage. Then they processed into St. Peter’s Basilica with clothes that were in clear violation of the Basilica’s dress code.
With the Summorum Pontificum now being banned from entrance into St. Peter’s Basilica by the Prevost homo-pseudopontificate, it should be more apparent now than ever that orthodox Catholics have no place in the Institution.
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You absolute midwit. Congrats on repeating the Wikipedia "Nazis were far-right, end of story" summary you absorbed between TikToks.
Yes, the Nazis crushed independent unions, jailed and murdered communists and social democrats, and Hitler liquidated the Strasserite "left" wing of his own party in the Night of the Long Knives. That part is not in dispute. They were not Marxist class-struggle socialists. They hated Bolshevism as a Jewish plot and treated international socialism as the main enemy. Fine.
What your middle-school history class skipped is that they still ran a National *Socialist* state: private property existed only as long as it served the Führer’s racial and war goals, wages and prices were controlled, industry was cartelized under state direction, profit was subordinated to the party, and the economy was planned for autarky and rearmament. That is not free-market capitalism, liberal conservatism, or classical right-wing economics. It is the same family of state-directed, anti-liberal, collectivist economics practiced by every other fascist and "national socialist" regime. The name was not a prank; the 25-point program and the early rhetoric were full of anti-capitalist planks precisely because they were competing with the actual socialists for working-class support.
Your North Korea comparison is the usual gotcha and it is only half-clever. Yes, names can lie. But the NSDAP did not merely call itself socialist while secretly running a Rothschild hedge fund. They nationalized, directed, rationed, and regimented. The difference from Soviet socialism was mainly that the Nazis kept the owners as managers under party orders instead of shooting them all and installing commissars. Both systems produced shortages, secret police, and mass graves; one just had better uniforms and Wagner.
Elon pointing out the obvious—that "National Socialist" is not an ironic branding exercise and that the regime was economically left of any classical liberal or conservative—does not make him a moron. It makes him less obedient to the post-1945 academic consensus that insists every totalitarian who isn’t a full Marxist must be filed under "far-right" so the left never has to share the body count. Money didn’t buy him a brain; it just bought him a platform where he doesn’t have to pretend your selective reading of 1930s Germany is the complete picture.
Keep yelling "far-right fascists" while ignoring the actual economic policies and the party’s own name. It is the historical equivalent of covering your ears and shouting.
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The organisers of the Ad Petri Sedem Summorum Pontificum pilgrimage told me this evening that they were offered no alternative dates or possibilities to celebrate the Pontifical Mass today in St Peter's Basilica, neither in the August 7 letter from the Secretariat of State that denied them the possibility, nor in the weeks and months leading up to the Vatican's decision. They were simply told the basilica was unavailable. The Vatican also made no mention of any other events taking place at the same time in the basilica that could clash with the Mass.
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“He jailed socialists, so he wasn’t a socialist.”
This is the argument every single person in my replies thinks is a mic drop. It’s actually the weakest one available, and it collapses in five seconds.
Lenin banned the Mensheviks and the Socialist Revolutionaries. Both were socialist parties. By your logic, Lenin wasn’t a socialist.
Stalin shot Bukharin, Zinoviev, Kamenev, and sent an ice axe through Trotsky’s skull. All of them were founding fathers of the Bolshevik revolution. By your logic, Stalin wasn’t a socialist.
Mao purged Liu Shaoqi, the President of the People’s Republic, and let him die in a cell. Pol Pot murdered his own cadres by the thousands. Robespierre sent Danton to the guillotine, then got the guillotine himself.
There’s a reason Vergniaud said the Revolution, like Saturn, devours its own children. Purging rival socialists isn’t evidence against collectivism. It’s one of its most reliable signatures.
Why? Because when the state decides everything, there can only be one plan. Two factions with two plans for the same economy can’t coexist. One has to disappear. In a free society, disagreements get settled by markets and elections. In a planned society, they get settled by the secret police. Hitler crushing the SPD and the KPD, then murdering Röhm and Strasser in his own party, is exactly what you’d predict from a regime competing for the same thing: total control of the economy and of society.
And that’s the real question. Not “what did he call himself” and not “who did he arrest”. The question is: who runs the economy? Under the Nazis, independent unions were abolished and replaced by a state labor front. Prices and wages were frozen by decree. Investment was directed by a Four-Year Plan. Private property existed on paper, as long as owners did exactly what the state told them to do.
Hayek saw this in real time. He dedicated The Road to Serfdom “To the socialists of all parties” precisely because he understood that the planners of the left and the planners of the right were the same species. Collectivism isn’t a color on the political spectrum. It’s the belief that a central authority can and should direct the economy. Once you accept that, the purges, the camps and the one-party state aren’t accidents. They’re the operating manual.
So no, “he jailed communists” doesn’t refute anything. Communists jailed communists for seventy years.
Read Hayek. Then come back.