This image was all over my feeds yesterday. I added the red line to it. We don't magically wake up to being high agency sages. Most of us follow a predictable developmental pattern that I've seen time and time again, including in my own life. We start out seeking to become high agency because we think that's going to get us what we want. As the ego develops, we begin to create more agency in our lives through confidence, willpower, and personal responsibility. At a certain point in our development, this stops working. Usually something life altering happening that breaks our paradigm. Only through trial, are we forced to deeply examine our lives. Through this process often must face the source of our drive and ambition. This often sends us into a period of disillusionment with the previous paradigm where we were obsessed with being high agency. For example, when I realized my obsession with achievement was driven by unconscious low-self esteem, achievement became less interesting for awhile. I don't think the word "spiritual bypassing" that's used in this chart is the right one, but generally the deconstruction of the previous paradigm leaves a lack of interest in your old ways in its wake. This is a predictable development before a deeper integration that transcends and includes the previous high agency paradigm. After hanging out in "nothing is interesting besides consciousness land," previous high agency folks start to recognize that they are holding a false polarity between wisdom and effectiveness. The answer isn't one or the other. It's about learning to apply your agency from a place of wisdom. Integrating these two aspects of life so you can hold both simultaneously takes time. You must unwind many of the consciousness patterns that create artificial barriers between continuing to work on your consciousness AND being an effective person in the world. Over time it gets easier and a beautiful synergistic loop emerges. Your consciousness work informs greater agency, and taking action supports continued consciousness development. Sharing this for fellow travelers on this windy road. It's not a straight line, but its worth it! Shoutout to @peternlimberg for creating this image and @tomowenmorgan for getting it on my radar!